Mountain and River Pillow: Chapter 126 (8.27)
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Chu Yu was a little dazed, she stared blankly at Wei Yun at the end of the corridor, he didn't say anything, just stood there quietly, his eyes were neither sad nor happy, but his body Trembling faintly.
Gu Chusheng held her hand, a second before she stepped forward, he suddenly realized something, he held her tightly, and said hoarsely: "Ayu, don't go, you do not leave Me."
Chu Yu didn't speak, she lowered her head and looked at Gu Chusheng's face full of pleading.
After a long time, she finally came back to her senses and said hard: "How dare you?"
How dare you say it? How dare you tell her?
Does he think that all injuries can be solved with a single word of apology.
All the pain can be dissipated by kneeling.
.
He lost all his cards, he tried every possibility, if she left, he really had no choice.
So he could only clumsily pull her, she wanted to pull her hand in pain, he repeated: "I was wrong, I was really wrong, Ayu, I won't do it again. I I know what you want, I know how to love you, I can treat you better than anyone else, Ayu..."
"Let go." Chu Yu's voice was trembling, she had tried her best to restrain it, but those emotions that exploded still reverberated in her heart. She burst into tears, but that young man with a calm attitude seemed to have let go of all his self-esteem.
The sound of the rain started to get louder, and under the lights, the two of them were embarrassed.
Wei Yun stood not far away, he looked at them quietly, he felt that he was standing very close, but no matter how they looked at them, they felt so far away. They seem to have an invisible world that isolates him.
Ma was calm, but at this moment, he felt as if he had lost his way.
He didn't know what to do, so he couldn't do anything but stand.
He looked at the two, feeling the surging emotions between them, and after a long time, he finally said: "Master Gu, that's enough."
Gu Chusheng was stunned for a while, he saw Wei Yun put away his umbrella and walked to the two of them.
Wei Yun raised his hand and gently placed it on Gu Chusheng's hand.
"Master Gu," he said calmly: "Everything has boundaries, you have already reached that point, if you can't get past, you should let go and turn back."
Gu Chusheng did not speak, he quietly looked at Wei Yun.
"She is," Gu Chusheng said with difficulty: "She is my Madam Gu."
Wei Yun lowered his eyes, he held Gu Chusheng's hand, he did not exert any force, but said, "please let go."
"She is the Mrs. Gu who I slept in the same bed for twelve years, entered my Gu family's ancestral grave, and was buried with me."
"Please let go."
"Wei Yun," Gu Chusheng finally felt the strength from his wrist, and the pain made him tremble, but he stubbornly did not let go, he stared at Wei Yun and said word by word, "She is me wife."
Wei Yun squeezed his hand slightly loose, his eyelashes trembled, and then he controlled his strength and tried to drag Gu Chusheng's hand off Chu Yu little by little.
Gu Chusheng struggled frantically, Wei Yun didn't move, he punched and kicked, Wei Yun didn't fight back, he just pulled out his hand little by little.
Like his feelings, one by one, dragged out of that person's life.
Gu Chusheng was throbbing and crying, while Wei Yun was calm and self-controlled. Gu Chusheng finally couldn't hold back and roared.
"What are you?! Wei Yun, she is your sister-in-law. In the past life, she was the wife of my Ming media. In this life, she is the wife of your elder brother Ming media. What is your status? Mind me and her?"
Wei Yun did not speak, he protected Chu Yu behind him, looked at Gu Chusheng who was pushed away by him, and said calmly: "Master Gu, go back, do what you have to do."
Gu Chusheng sat on the ground and looked at them panting, Wei Yun looked at Gu Chusheng with pity in his eyes, but he didn't know whether to pity him or himself.
"Go back," he said hoarsely: "You are a cabinet scholar, there are many things waiting for you in this world, and many people rely on you. Don't pester a woman here, it's indecent ."
Hearing this, Gu Chusheng laughed lowly.
"Wei Yun...I really didn't expect that I could hear the word decency from your mouth in this life."
Wei Yun put his hands in his sleeves, listening to the wind and rain, listening to him say: "Wei Yun, in my last life, I cared about my body and too many people. The day she died, I Sitting in the mourning hall, and reviewing documents."
"But you know what," Gu Chusheng's voice was mixed in the rain, and he slowly lowered: "Then you will find that you have been polished with a youthful spirit, and you have lost the freshness that the world loves most. After living romantically, everyone will only get farther and farther away from you. There will be fewer and fewer people who love you, and the road will become narrower and narrower. In the end, you will be offered on the altar and live like a tablet."
"Why do you think I lost to you?" Gu Chusheng laughed, he propped himself up and stood up slowly, he stared at him and laughed wildly: "I didn't lose to you Wei Yun, I lost to time and myself. I have walked too far..." He hoarsely said, "I don't have her favorite cleanliness, I don't have the courage, I don't have it purely."
"When she loves me the most..." Gu Chusheng said hoarsely, he looked at Chu Yu with a blank look in his eyes: "When she loves me the most..."
Also when he was a teenager.
He wears a red coat and a golden crown, and he is full of energy. He served as the county magistrate of Kunyang, taking the people to evacuate; as a civil servant, he shuttled through the battlefield.
When she loved him the most, he came on a horse, bright and magnanimous; he came with the grain and grass, even if his whole body was scarred, he would raise his head and say to her: "Don't mind me, Take care of the food and grass."
"Wei Yun," he said in a low voice, "you've gone this way, you're destined to protect her well. You'll only waste her, so let's go."
Hearing this, Wei Yun smiled slowly.
"Gu Chusheng," his smile was full of bitterness: "She was never mine, if you want it, you should ask her if she is willing, not let me let go."
"The biggest difference between you and me," he looked at Gu Chusheng, said with difficulty: "That is, you love someone, you think you are both, so you don't have yourself. I love A person who never feels that she belongs to me or that I belong to her."
"I am Wei Yun, the Marquis of Zhenguo, and the current King Ping. I have my responsibilities and the path I want to take. So does she."
Chu Yu listened to his words, slowly raised her head, and looked up at the young man beside her.
The wind and rain came in, his face was calm and calm, he restrained his emotions, which was completely different from her and Gu Chusheng's gaffe. He came from the wind and rain, and his clothes were already wet by the rain, but it didn't affect him even half. He looked at Gu Chusheng, his voice was calm and calm: "She is Chu Yu, the eldest lady of the Wei family, the first-class official, and the general Beifeng in the army. Her life is far more than you and me. She doesn't belong to anyone, who she loves, no I can't control who I love; I can't control whether she wants to stay at Wei's house, go to Huajing with you, or travel around the world."
"You asked me to let go," Wei Yun smiled with difficulty: "Where do we start?"
"You never gave her what a relationship should look like," Wei Yun looked at Gu Chusheng quietly: "You didn't let her learn to be self-reliant in a relationship, and you didn't let her feel Having a relationship will be her best barrier. To this day, you still can't understand that when you have a good relationship, you have to be a good person first. So, don't bother. "
He bent down, picked up the umbrella next to him, and said lightly: "Go back, be good to Gu Chusheng first, and then love someone."
After he finished speaking, he raised his hand and held Chu Yu's hand.
His hands were very warm, and at the moment when the temperature rushed over, she felt as if she was a person submerged in deep water and was suddenly salvaged.
If Gu Chusheng's love is to drag her down the suffocating swamp, this person is like a boat, dragging her to the other side.
She followed him quietly, passing by the place where the rain was heavy, he held an umbrella and tilted it down to cover the heavy rain. When they walked into the house, he asked someone to prepare **** tea, and then brought her clothes, lowered his eyes and said, "Let's change first, don't get cold."
Chu Yu responded in a low voice, his demeanor was so peaceful, so peaceful that she could also settle down.
She changed her clothes, Wanyue brought the **** soup, Chu Yu held the bowl, Wei Yun took the handkerchief, stood behind her, and gently wiped her hair.
She slowly calmed down and regained her sense of reason in the warmth. The person behind her moved gently and carefully. After drying her hair, he took the drinking bowl from her hand , whispered: "Go to sleep first, I still have a lot of things to do, so I'll go back first."
"Xiao Qi," Chu Yu finally said, "Is there anything you want to ask me?"
Wei Yun turned his back to her, and after a long time, he finally said, "Let's another day."
Chu Yu responded in a low voice, Wei Yun took a few steps out, and stopped again.
"A Yu," his voice was hoarse, Chu Yu raised his head, looked at his back, and listened to him: "I will be sad too."
No matter how well he does, he pretends to be calm and calm.
But people are people after all.
Chu Yu stared at him blankly, the young man in front of him turned around, he smiled with difficulty, and said hoarsely: "Can you come here?" He seemed to be like when he was a teenager, but this sentence He said it so hard, so slowly, he said, "Can you come over and give me a hug?"
Let me know that this relationship is not my work alone.
Let me understand that this feeling will respond.
Chu Yu looked at him, the other party waited for a while, but without waiting for anything, Wei Yun lowered his head and chuckled, as if returning to his usual calm and calm appearance, he turned around and said gently: " It's alright, I'll go back first."
However, as soon as he finished speaking, he was suddenly rushed from behind and held in his arms.
Chu Yu was behind him and pressed her forehead against him, her temperature was transmitted from behind him, Wei Yun stared blankly at the shaking lights outside the door. fell.
Chu Yu hugged him behind his back, Wei Yun didn't dare to look back, didn't dare to blink, he opened his mouth slowly with a hoarse voice.
"I don't know what's wrong, I don't know what to do."
"Ayu," he said hoarsely: "Actually, Gu Chusheng is right, everyone loves young people, I sometimes think, when I was fifteen years old in Beidi, you walked past me on your back. There are thousands of rivers and thousands of mountains. At that time, I felt that the world was very beautiful. At that time, Wei Qiu and Wei Xia would still play with me, and Shen Wushuang talked more than now, and my mother would not be uneasy when facing me. At that time, you would still hold me, Call me Little Seven."
"But now, I don't know what happened."
"Wei Qiuwei Xia rarely jokes with me, and Shen Wushuang also begins to be respectful. Mother always has something in her heart. She never told me that it was you..."
Wei Yun looked at the swaying lantern and said hoarsely: "It has also changed."
"I asked myself what I did wrong, I tried my best to protect everyone, I learned restraint, patience, tolerance, and decisiveness," Wei Yun slowly closed his eyes, with a faint cry in his voice : "But everyone is still getting farther and farther away from me, respecting but not loving, rewarding but not kissing. But what did I do wrong?"
Wei Yun's voice trembled, he seemed unable to restrain himself, in Chu Yu's arms, he slowly stooped down, he raised his hand, covered his face, and burst into tears : "I just grew up."
He just grew up.
When a person grows up, every word he speaks becomes meaningful and every motive he makes is seen as containing ambition.
He has worked very hard, he has tried hard to make everyone around him have a good life, he has tried hard to hug the person behind him, all her worries, fears and unease, he is solving it for her , but the world still hasn't turned out what he wanted.
But what did he do wrong?
She once gave the best of herself to Gu Chusheng, she could let go of all Ye Yu and run away to find Gu Chusheng, she could love the person who would not love with the courage to never look back, and then Gu Chusheng If you make a mistake, kneel down and pray, you can still get her soft heart and heartache.
He was careful to give her all the good things. He asked Zhao Yue for the position of General Beifeng. She didn't like him enough, so he waited for her, but she still went further and further, he didn't know how to keep her, and he didn't even dare to ask Gu Chusheng to keep her.
Because he knew that if he kept her, she would stay.
So he didn't dare to say anything, he could only hold her hand and cry in her arms on this rainy night.
He hasn't cried like this for many years, Chu Yu hugged him tightly, sharp pain came up, she gritted her teeth.
It was the first time she truly felt that Wei Yun had a harder and harder life than she imagined.
It's just that some people never show their wounds to others, so even if they are pus and rotten, others will think they are indifferent.
She remembered that in the sand five years ago, Wei Yun was soaked in the potion given by Shen Wushuang, he struggled and cried, hugged her and called her, sister-in-law, I hurt.
When he was young, he could say such things, but when he grew up, he couldn't even say the word "I hurt". Instead, he just asked her, what did I do wrong?
There is nothing wrong with it.
Chu Yu gritted her teeth, she listened to his cry, thinking of her youth.
She is unfair.
Even though he never spoke, she clearly realized that this relationship was too unfair to her. She left all the wounds Gu Chusheng gave her to Wei Yun. Gu Chusheng restrained her, so she lived in the Wei family as the first lady of the Gu family, but she forgot the three conditions that Wei Yun gave to Zhao Yue when he returned from Beidi. He asked for a military position for her; Gu Chusheng let her down, she was uneasy, waiting for Wei Yun to let him down one day, but she didn't see Wei Yun put this feeling in her heart for five years, and it never faded.
She gave her best self to Gu Chusheng who did wrong, but gave her worst self to Wei Yun who did nothing wrong.
A relationship will have hardships no matter what, pain and sweetness go hand in hand, tolerance and freedom go hand in hand. Wei Yun had paved all the way for her, but she didn't even have the courage to go up.
She took a deep breath and tightened her arms.
She suddenly thought, if she went back to the age of fifteen, if she had not married Gu Chusheng, had not experienced years of trial and error, in the best years, when she met this person, she would have done What?
When this idea flashed, she lowered her head and bit the man's lips fiercely.
Cries and tears were intertwined in this kiss, she pressed Wei Yun under her body, slipped her fingers into his hands, and clasped them together.
She had never kissed him so indulgently, without the slightest skill, reckless and passionate. Wei Yun was under her and slowly clenched her hand.
"Wei Yun," Chu Yu straightened up and looked at him seriously: "I confess to you, I have lived my whole life."
"I just heard."
Wei Yun looked at the person sitting on him, he tightened his body, he was a little afraid of what she was about to say, Chu Yu quietly stared at the person under him, and calmly said: "I marry Great, had kids."
"I know."
Wei Yun lowered his eyes, unconsciously clenched the ten fingers that were intertwined with her, but seemed to think of something and slowly released it.
Chu Yu leaned over, her hair fell down beside him, she looked at him quietly, and said gently, "I used to treat you badly."
"No..." Wei Yun hoarsely said, "I asked too much."
"What you should ask for," Chu Yu raised her hand and put it on his face, with a gentle expression: "I used to look good, I was brave back then, you want Yes, as a lover, I should give it to you. But I gave it to others, not to you."
"Stop talking!" Wei Yun seemed a little embarrassed, he wanted to get up, Chu Yu raised his hand and pressed him down suddenly, she looked at him with a solemn expression.
"So Wei Yun," her eyes fell on his eyes, intertwined, she looked at him quietly, and said calmly: "Let's start again, okay?"
Wei Yun was stunned, she didn't seem to understand, Chu Yu raised her hand and took the hairpin off her hair. The blue silk fell like a waterfall, and there was still water vapor in her eyes, but there was a smile on the corners of her eyes and brows.
"If I were fifteen years old, I would like you," she raised her hand and took off her belt, Wei Yun stared blankly, seeing her clothes unravel, and leaned down: "If you like me, then you are drunk at the moment, do you like it?"
Wei Yun didn't speak, he turned his eyes to the side, opened his mouth, and seemed to say something, Chu Yu put his hand in his hair, and said softly: "Do you like me?"
"I like it." This sound of liking came without hesitation, but with a cry and grievance, Chu Yu laughed softly. She lowered her head, held his lips, and said softly, "That's enough."
That's enough.
The rain hit the autumn leaves and the corridor was cold. They hugged and kissed, from the ground to the bed, heartily.
When the **** came suddenly, he hugged her tightly and buried her in her body.
He shivered and hugged her tightly.
He hugged her, he felt her, and he suddenly realized at that moment that even if she said she was leaving, he was not afraid.
Because he knew that Chu Yu at this time really loved him.
The author has something to say:It must be that my aunt came so violently that I couldn't stop crying.
This chapter is obviously not cruel.
But when I wrote that Wei Yun paused, asked Chu Yu if you could come and hug me, and cried and said, "I just grew up", I remembered Wei Yun's white horse killing seven General, young hero, Xianyi is angry and high-spirited, this is probably the best time of Wei Yun's life, but it really can't be anymore. Because people grow up, they learn to hide their wounds in their hearts, learn to be patient, learn to be prudent, and learn to sit on the high hall and approve every document even if they want to cry. Because no one will ask what's going on behind your back, everyone will only ask, lord, what to do next.
Ah... no, my tears are worthless...
No matter what, I will always love General Wei! !
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Actually, Xiaoqi never thought about restraining Ayu. When he negotiated with Zhao Yue, the second condition was to make Chuyu a first-class official, and to add the military merits of the first battle of Fengling City. Give military service.
From many years ago to now, Wei Yun wanted to give Chu Yu a piece of the sky. It's just that all women are used to being restrained. When Chu Yu became the eldest lady of the Wei family, she thought about becoming the eldest lady; Liu Xueyang and Jiang Chun, every woman thought they were shackled by their self-righteousness.
Wipe away your tears, the war is about to begin! Let's go, **** it! !